sweet boy

tonight at dinner i was performing my award-winning "you have to eat your food so you can grow big and tall" speech when grant looked at me with the saddest eyes and said, "but mama, i don't want to grow big and tall. i want to stay just like this and be a family, with you, and daddy, and paigey and me. our family needs a boy in it and if i grow big and tall there won't be a boy in it anymore and we won't be a family."

i wrapped him in my arms and assured him that no matter how big he got and no matter what happened we'd always be a family - me and daddy and paigey and him. and then i had to explain that, sometimes, love makes mommies cry.